Part of this amazing journey I am on takes me away from home! For those of you that know me you understand that home is the MOST important thing to me - not just the structure but those I love and cherish within these walls. It is amazing to me that I get to do what I do, I could not be more excited or more honored to share my creativity with the world.
With this (for me), comes the automatic response to share a bit of my heart. While I choose not to share all facets of my life (I thank you deeply for understanding this), I do wear my heart on my sleeve. One only has to look into my eyes to see my emotions. As I look in the mirror right now I see a mixed concoction filled with the joy of traveling to share the joy and creativity and the other emotion - guilt.
It is always hard for me to go - especially as the little man is not so little any longer but 13 years old. I feel guilty for not being here for every moment, every experience, every meal and every night time tuck in. This time is especially hard as Conner had a horrible reaction to a bee sting; one the Doctor has deemed will only get better with rest and no use, oh and a wee bit of Benadryl. As I sit with him as he builds yet another building in his Minecraft world (one of the perks of bed rest) he tells me "don't worry Mom I'll be fine"....heart laughs as he says "Grandma and Papa raised you and Auntie I will be fine".
The guilt is still there but alongside that is excitment and happiness as I venture off to SmittenDust where my heart will be spilling over and my time will feel all too short come Monday monring when I fly home.
Kristen anyone who knows you knows your an amazing Mother Connor is such a credit to you he will be okay.I know how you feeling being a mum we always beat ourselves up about not being there every minute,for our kids,I know more than anyone.He wants you to be happy as well and is proud of you.Love Jen x
Posted by: Jen Crossley | 10 June 2015 at 04:27 PM
It's always hard to leave our children; but, how wonderful that he has been raised so well that he can reassure you with an accurate assessment of how well he (and your mom and dad) will handle it. I'm really looking forward to seeing you Friday (not as good as being with family, but at least you know that many people will be welcoming you to Michigan).
Posted by: joanne thieme huffman | 10 June 2015 at 05:55 PM
I extra appreciate your traveling across to teach us wonderful and amazing things when you have to leave this handsome guy behind. One thing is sure -- when they know they are loved and that you aren't leaving every single week and when you do you are leaving them in safe hands, and that your heart is filled with love -- they'll be OK. He will be just fine. (And yes, you will miss him tons but hopefully the warm and loving welcome you'll get from all of us will make the separation a little easier!) See you Friday!
Posted by: jeanie | 11 June 2015 at 11:18 AM