Part of this amazing journey I am on takes me away from home! For those of you that know me you understand that home is the MOST important thing to me - not just the structure but those I love and cherish within these walls. It is amazing to me that I get to do what I do, I could not be more excited or more honored to share my creativity with the world.
With this (for me), comes the automatic response to share a bit of my heart. While I choose not to share all facets of my life (I thank you deeply for understanding this), I do wear my heart on my sleeve. One only has to look into my eyes to see my emotions. As I look in the mirror right now I see a mixed concoction filled with the joy of traveling to share the joy and creativity and the other emotion - guilt.
It is always hard for me to go - especially as the little man is not so little any longer but 13 years old. I feel guilty for not being here for every moment, every experience, every meal and every night time tuck in. This time is especially hard as Conner had a horrible reaction to a bee sting; one the Doctor has deemed will only get better with rest and no use, oh and a wee bit of Benadryl. As I sit with him as he builds yet another building in his Minecraft world (one of the perks of bed rest) he tells me "don't worry Mom I'll be fine"....heart laughs as he says "Grandma and Papa raised you and Auntie I will be fine".
The guilt is still there but alongside that is excitment and happiness as I venture off to SmittenDust where my heart will be spilling over and my time will feel all too short come Monday monring when I fly home.